February 2012
Soundwave Tommorow :D I hope the weather won’t be too shit though
I’m working 12pm to 10pm today I can’t be bothered !!
Andd I miss Aaron so much :c
I get why he wants us to live together and I want to but at the same time it’s a bad idea right now and cbf explaining why,
Oh well I can’t wait for Tommorow and for work to over today
I know exactly how i got this attatched to Aaron and it happened years ago. I can’t fucking cope lol…
headlikeawhore:
I think you’re pathetically boring and I hate you.
Every time things are going well I remember everything bad and it ruins it all. I can’t get over this and cry at night all the time and as much as you say you love me it never seems like it if you could do this stuff to me . I always try to be alright but it’s so hard.. You take me for granted so much and it sucks .. I know I complain a lot and it isn’t always bad but at the same...
Friends ask me how I feel and I lie convincingly cos I don’t want to reveal the fact that I’m suffering
So I wear my disguise till I go home at night and turn down all the lights and then I break down and cry.
I try my hardest to not get close to people but at the same time I wish I had friends like proper true friends.. What the fuck. I don’t even understand why it gets to me so much
Went alternative clothes shopping today and got the most awesome new clothes . :) Also saw Aaron but he was making me angry and stuff :/
This bullshit hurts so much when am I going to be alright and be over it because I’m tired of waking up a million times at night and random thoughts come out of nowhere and upset me at work all the time an I’m tired of having nightmares
Im all hot and sweaty and yuck at Aaron’s house I hate this weather. :c
Stupid heat D:
